Responsibility

Well that was a freakin disaster. I showed up to my Statistics test with a calculator that had no batteries in it. I needed that calculator for literally over 90% of that test and probably 50% were questions that couldn't be done by hand even if you had Stephen Hawking, Albert Einstein, Sir Isaac Newton and a room full of monkeys banging on keyboards for 3 years all collaborating.

When I left the test instantly I began to curse my ex girlfriend's and ex best friend's names for putting me in this deep depression that caused me to show up to the test late without time to get new batteries.

Then I had a realization. This is what I always do. Blame others for my problems. My entire life I have accepted no responsibility for any of my actions but what I failed to realize until now is that by doing that I can't accept any of the successes I've had. You can't have one but not the other. T and M didn't do this and they sure don't care that any of it has happened. It's up to me to control the outcome.

Then I talked to my little bro (fraternity) Z. In all his simple yet profound wisdom he reminded me that "it could be worse, you're alive, have all your body parts, no 50 lb tumor on your head and you're not growin roots from your extremities."

My mom let me know that law schools will not turn me down because of 1 semester. I can do this, I just have to put forth the effort.

So, from now on I will be spending 2 hours a day on school work. Each day. Every day. I know to most of you that is nothing, you put in 10X that. But for me this is alot and like I said earlier, the first step is the hardest.

"Dictionary is the only place that success comes before work. Hard work is the price we must pay for success. I think you can accomplish anything if you're willing to pay the price."

-Vince Lombardi

As a die-hard Packers fan I love his quotes. So I'll leave you with this, something to help you through the day as it has helped me through mine.

"As I have seen, those who plow iniquity

and sow trouble reap the same.

By the breath of God they perish,

and by the blast of his anger they are consumed."

Job 4.8,9

Adam